Perfect

My heart has been full this week as I have had several opportunities to reflect on our Heavenly Father's plan of salvation. I have been in awe as I have pondered on the perfection of His plan. I cannot use words to express my wonder and gratitude for this plan of happiness. It is...perfect.

I started reflecting on this at my sleepover with Aubrey on Sunday night. As I watched her through the night I couldn't help but be overcome by the perfectness of her little body, her perfect mind, and her perfect spirit. I became emotional as I held her and thought of her being in our Heavenly Father's arms not even 1 week before that. I thought of all that she had learned and been prepared for in the pre-existence...all that she had agreed to. What an overwhelming feeling to hold this perfect child of God....her pure, unblemished spirit ready to be a warrior in this chaotic world. I held her close and kissed her all night.

A couple days later I returned to work where we had lost two more angels...Courageous little angels who had completed their mission on this earth. Lately I have struggled whenever we lose little ones. I have had a hard time coping and have been overcome with an "it's not fair" mentality..."why them?", "why did these innocent little children deserve to have to suffer from this awful disease?" I became emotional again driving home from work that night, being overcome with these same feelings. As I was driving deep in thought and prayer asking Heavenly Father to help me understand "why?", I began to look at the stars, the moon...the heavens. I was overcome with peace as I knew all of the little angels we've lost are with Him, safe in His arms. I could picture them running, jumping, no IV or feeding tubes attached, no pain, with all of their hair, able to be kids again. I thought of the chance they would have to accept the gospel, to learn of eternal families.

I came home where I immediately embraced Eric and could not let go. Life is too fragile. I've learned that too often lately. I then began recapping to Eric all of my thoughts and feelings from the week. As we had a long discussion of the plan of salvation, I began to feel more peace, more assurance.

I KNOW without doubt that our Heavenly Father lives...that He loves us more than we can comprehend. I KNOW that because He loves us so much, He has created the plan of salvation--a perfect plan that gives us knowledge of where we came from, where we are going, and why we are here. I KNOW that families can be together forever through the sealing power of the temple. As a result, I KNOW that there is no need to fear and there is EVERY reason to rejoice. I KNOW that Heavenly Father is aware of our every need and will answer every question and lift every burden if we only turn to Him. I KNOW that the gospel of Jesus Christ has been restored on this earth, that so many before me have suffered so that I could feel the rewards of this beautiful gospel. I KNOW that the atonement of Jesus Christ is real, that Heavenly Father sent His Son so that we would be able to repent and live with him again.

As I reflect on this week I know that my peace has been restored and my testimony strengthened. What a beautiful, perfect plan...